I have been watching Too Hot To Handle Season 4 all day and I have finished the whole season.
I really love it, everyone is super hot and sexy. They learned to be honest about their own feelings, learned to treat each other with more respect, learned to trust people, and learned what their \”ideal\” relationships really are. And I am so happy to see that some do find their own happiness and hopefully the right person.
I like Nick from the beginning to the end, I love his eyes, and I love the way he is handling things. I appreciate Jawahir\’s self-growth, gaining the trust of people is extremely difficult and she dares to take that step further and explore more possibilities in her life. I love Kayla for she is so charming, I like her smiles and the way she expresses her preferences. I like Seb when he eventually learns how to express his feelings and the way he talks about the lessons he has learned.
It also put me thinking about my own perspective on relationships. I don\’t trust relationships, I don\’t trust human behaviors in general. I am always pushing someone really close to me away, both my friends and maybe my family. I have never let anyone in a romantic relationship get that close to me, I dump them real quick as soon as I lost interest in them, and usually, that\’s real quick. Actually, me and my exs are not ready for stepping into a relationship. Compared to what I have learned in the show, we were just dating. Some \”more related to you part\” of that person that you should have known before being their girlfriend or boyfriend. It\’s just stupid to start a relationship from a little more than friends. I have learned my lesson in reality, and that show just makes it more clear to me.
To cut it short, never be \”in a relationship\” with somebody before that you are sure this person would be the one for you. Know more about him or her before nodding and saying yes. Learn more about their state of mind, their opinions, their hobbies, their future plans, what they value most in life, and perhaps some of the things they consider to be the worst. Maybe this is the normal procedure for a mature relationship, and everything I had before was more like sort of playing around. But I changed and grow. And now, I enjoy the freedom of being single.
I wrote this six months ago and I really like it: First fill yourself with love, then consider leaving the rest for others. It sounds so selfish, but it did prevent me, lost and broken myself, from giving my love to the people that don\’t deserve it. And, it feels so good just loving yourself.
I know some of my ideas are still a mess and might sound naive. But love is such a big topic, and I still have such a long way ahead.
Hope I could find my \”the one\” someday. And wish you the same.