I think that I have reached the stage of \’hell yes or no\’. It is all about decision making. When there are not many options, it would be better to say \’yes\’ to any of them, but when there are many opportunities offered at the same time, some decision has to be made. And the way to make better decisions is based on this method called \’hell yes or no\’. When you get a bunch of choices, if that choice doesn\’t get your \’hell yes\’ and you\’re not 120% thrilled to try it out, then turn it down with a \’no\’. This will allow people to focus most of their energy on the things that really matter to them and forget about all the things that are less important.
For me, there are a lot of options now, a lot of opportunities in front of me. But I can\’t do it all. I\’m not good at saying \”no\”, at least when it comes to good things and people. If I find a truly precious opportunity, if I want to try something that interests me, I\’ll try to squeeze some time for them. This works well when I don\’t have my hands full, but as things stand, it leads to a situation where I\’m involved in a whole bunch of things, but not so involved in the one I really want to put most of my effort into.
I must admit that despite being happy with everything I did at daytime, I was super exhausted at the end of the day. It\’s like having drained every day, regained some energy by sleeping, and then jumped right into another damn busy day. And things like this go on and on and on.
Sometimes even playing and enjoying some free time becomes a task because I know I need to do something for myself to cheer myself up. It\’s such a shitty feeling. You know you have some other things to do, you know deep down you just want to relax and chill, all you don\’t know is how to balance them. That\’s the situation I am in.
So I guess it\’s time to get my shit together, rearrange things wisely, and learn to say no.