Tuesday, I felt like a Happy Tornado🌪️
I was super active that day, having done so many things, have a busy and tight schedule, but have managed it well. Everything felt so efficient. I have been to the place where I used to work, and everything felt so familiar. It reminded me of that period of time when I really learned a lot and was happy at work every day. And I have been to school twice, through different paths and going to different places. Every experience that day felt fresh and joyful.
Morning class. I really love the class! The lecturer and the classmates are all so professional and nice. It feels like a class that I can learn a lot from, and that is really exciting.
Eat with previous colleagues. They don’t seem to have changed. The lunch break is only an hour and we spend really quality time together. It is nice seeing them again since the last time I met them three or four months ago when I left the position.
Group meetings. Been doing a group project almost throughout the entire school year. We had a chilling and fun meeting that day. Had great chat and have got things done. I am really grateful to have them as my groupmates, I felt like there is so much that we can learn from each other and grow together.
Thursday, I felt like an Emotional Rollercoaster🎢
The weather has not been great and I tend to feel more emotional without sunlight. That day, really touched me. The day was just normal, nothing special happened, and then they all happened rapidly.
The boxing lesson. I was really sad during the session, I found out that I still cannot fully and quickly understand the language. That I am still an ‘outsider’ and a stranger to this city. I am not fully embraced. I know that I have spent a lot of effort, and I know that I have already made progress, but it doesn’t seem to be enough.
The friendly uncle at the restaurant. I went there with my friend before, and I went again alone that night. The uncle has a really kind smile: Your friend didn’t come with you this time, take your time and eat. The feeling of being remembered and being cared for healed me.
Last week, I wanted to put more effort into studying, and I did really well. Have some breakthrough that is gonna lift my workload for the rest of the semester. This week felt intense. There’s a lot that I am trying to do and a lot of things that need to be done. I am not sure if I am finding a balance in between. Next week, hopefully can have a life that balances school work, friends, and myself.