I am really thinking about the meaning of university to me lately.
One of my pen pals is not going to a colleague, yet, she is living a meaningful and enjoyable life. She finds her own meaning, and her own pursuits and she is definitely happier.
Is school really a must? My answer would be yes. I am not taking it as an opportunity to gain knowledge, though. My destination could only be achieved if I have at least a bachelor\’s degree. So it leads to my second question.
What am I supposed to learn? Gaining good grades, aren\’t my goal. I have done great in subjects though, I understand every piece of knowledge and could use them well, I am just not like some of my classmates who are really crazy about their grades. At least I don\’t calculate my release scores, do the calculations and get the numbers I have to get on the final exam in order for me to get an A or above. That sounds completely crazy to me. So, again, what should I focus on more then? Portfolios, practical projects? Are they enough? My fellow best friends keep telling me that I could do it, it wouldn\’t be difficult to land myself a job in a different country right after my graduation, but I don\’t get a backup plan for that for now, and I think I would take me way too much time to recover if I failed. The future is so complicated and unpredictable, but I have to find a meaning to ensure that the things I am doing every day would lead me somewhere and that I am not just wasting my effort.
I should have learned my lesson though. The only way out is to be as powerful and equipped as possible. Time will work everything out. I got really frustrated a month ago, also concerned about my uncertain future, and now it seems that everything has fallen into the right place.
What I do know is that the university I am studying at brings me precious experiences and opportunities. It allows me to meet great people and make friends with them. It allows me to seek guidance whenever needed. It allows me to ask questions to knowledgeable professors. And much more… I became the person I am now only because I entered college.
Planning for the future is so difficult. But it is the topic that concerns me the most and will remain so for a long time. I really wish I could turn over my future and live the life I want. In 10 or 11 years\’ time. Wish me luck. Till then, keep it up.